and gone are all fusses

"when life gives you lemons, make lemonade you know you're having fun"

bukan sok bijak atau denial dengan realita atau apa, coba untuk nrimo kalau kata orang jawa.
belajar optimis kalau gak semua pengalaman buruk juga bawa pengaruh buruk.
belajar realistis kalau situasi dan kondisi juga bisa fluktuatif bahkan drastis berubah tanpa persiapan mental sebelumnya.
belajar adaptasi dengan lingkungan dan kultur yang mendadak berbeda.
belajar kontrol logika dan emosi walaupun sebenarnya meng-anjingbabi-kan apapun itu dirasa reaksi yang paling benar.
belajar refleksi diri, salah satu cara terima diri apa adanya bukan ada apanya.
belajar untuk terima gak semua orang punya pandangan apalagi prinsip yang sama dan itu bukan sesuatu yang bisa dipaksa walaupun lewat persuasi. males kan liat orang sesumbar tentang prinsipnya yang blablabla dan tanpa disadari malah offensive buat pihak tertentu. yang ada orang-orang berubah opini liatnya. gagal aja niat kasih impresi bagus, jadinya apa.
belajar lebih open minded, yang kecil-kecil aja dulu. contoh... orang yang nilainya jelek bukan berarti blo'on, siapa tau emang males belajar atau gak niat buat tau lebih dalam. atau yang paling sering kejadian, orang yang tengil ngeselin sombong intinya gak bisa ditolerir lagi, bisa mendadak berubah. dapat siraman rohani mungkin ya.

belajar walk the talk. dimana-mana emang lebih gampang vokalisasi dibanding aktualisasi. hal kecil tapi krusial.
maksudnya krusial ?
misal buat janji 'nanti gue cari waktu bulan depan buat kesana ya' atau 'iya jam 10 aku pasti udah di rumah' tapi kenyataannya apa. gak ada dong yang mau dicap omdo.

yang paling fondasional, belajar jaga image. bukan...bukan...bukan jaim yang itu, tapi jaim dengan maksud preventive. maklum....siapa sih yang gak suka gosip. topik obrolan yang ada unsur orang ketiga walaupun cuma sedikit udah terbilang gosip.
hubungannya sama fondasional ?
sering orang tua ceramah  'apa kata orang nanti kalau blablabla'. kesel, iya. sakit hati, iya lah rasanya opini orang lain lebih penting dibanding fakta yang ada. dan biasanya kalimat itu direspon dengan 'tapi aku tuh blablabla'. gak salah, tapi kalau dipikir ya ada benarnya ceramah orang tua. opini yang beredar tentang kita datangnya darimana kalau bukan dari first impression atau image keseharian. apa yang diliat, itu yang diingat. butuh waktu buat merubah suatu hal apalagi yang negatif. apa salahnya mulai dengan yang positif.

but all in all,

sometimes we have to gain something in a hard way.

have a little faith in blessing in disguise...

...another old people saying

"....salah gue ? salah temen-temen gue ?"

just saying

Yes, I'm not a saint nor a good deed doer all the time
Yes, I curse someone or something I dislike
Yes, I do feel satisfy somehow after get what I want the most at all cost

No, I'm not trying to play a nice human being here or there
No, name it 'have fun' instead of 'immaturity'


Well then.....
Haters gonna hate and potatoes gonna potate

Allusion

you get it, don't you ?

another saying

"put your expectations at a reachable height. you know if you do the vice versa, don't you ?"

got the point

circulate

got nothing to do in a place that you're supposed to work on something, it feels like....

here comes internet kingdom, sharpened the browsing skill

but then realize someone keeps an eye on you and it would be like.....

by courtesy of  this tumblr

A Letter from Mom & Dad

My child....
When I get old,
I hope you understand and have patience with me

In case I break a plate
or spill soup on the table because I'm loosing my eyesight,
I hope you don't yell at me
Older people are sensitive,
always having selfpity when you yell

When my hearing gets worse and can't hear what you're saying,
I hope you don't call me "Deaf"
Please repeat what you said or write it down

I'm sorry my child, I'm getting older

When my knees get weaker,
I hope you have the patience to help me get up
Like how I used to help you while you were little
Learning how to walk

Please bear with me

When I keep repeating myself like a broken record,
I hope you just keep listening to me
Please don't make fun of me or get sick of listening to me

Do you remember when you were little
and you wanted a baloon ?
You repeated yourself over and over until you got what you wanted

Please also pardon my smell, I smell like and old person
Please don't force me to shower, my body is weak
Old people get sick easily when they're cold
I hope I don't gross you out

Do you remember when you were little ?
I used to chase you around
because you didn't want to shower

I hope you can be patient with me when I'm always cranky
It's all part of getting old
You'll understand when you're older

And if you have spare time,
I hope we can talk even for a few minutes
I'm always all by myself all the time
and have no one to talk to
I know you're busy with work

Even when you're not interested in my stories,
please have time for me

Do you remember when you were little ?
I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear

When the time comes and I get ill and bedridden,
I hope you have the patience to take care of me

I'm sorry,
If I accidentally wet the bed or make a mess
I hope you have the patience to take care of me during the last few moments of my life
I'm not going to last much longer, anyway

When the time of my death comes,
I hope you hold my hand and give me strength to face death

And don't worry....

When I finally meet our Creator,
I will whisper in His ear to bless you
because you loved your mom & dad

Thank you so much for your care

We love you

with much love,

Mom & Dad

keliru

kesindir ya ?


sama dong masbro

minority

togetherness, a part of the socializing needs that unconsciously you can't deny even enjoying those quality times all by yourself somehow feels so good. just for awhile. period.

'call it independency', you said

'you bet...'

hang around alone isn't cool anymore
eat alone again isn't cool anymore
spend the days alone again and again isn't cool anymore

yes, i miss home that much. no matter how fun or great to be here

'Thank God It's Weekend', i always say. no more that independency

die you ignorance

you mad ?

Now and then I think of when we were together
Like when you said you felt so happy you could die
Told myself that you were right for me
But felt so lonely in your company
But that was love and it's an ache I still remember

You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness
Like resignation to the end
Always the end
So when we found that we could not make sense
Well you said that we would still be friends
But I'll admit that I was glad that it was over

But you didn't have to cut me off
Make out like it never happened
And that we were nothing
And I don't even need your love
But you treat me like a stranger
And that feels so rough
You didn't have to stoop so low
Have your friends collect your records
And then change your number
I guess that I don't need that though
Now you're just somebody that I used to know

Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over
But had me believing it was always something that I'd done
And I don't wanna live that way
Reading into every word you say
You said that you could let it go
And I wouldn't catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know...

(Back to reff)

Somebody
I used to know
Somebody
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
Somebody
I used to know
Somebody
Now you're just somebody that I used to know
I used to know
that I used to know
I used to know
Somebody...

Prageaster

huh ? prageaster ?
prague and easter, it's just another habit of merging 2 words become 1

the first day was so f*cked up, disaster, horrible, just name it i know it's too much but it really was, thanks for those who were helping me a lot, i'm gonna go there again one day.

artistic old town, a bit mystical yet gorgeous, and super cheap ! aha this point i like the most

indeed

why so serious ?

simply because i keep growing up,

doesn't mean not to know how to have some fun any longer

a song does better than words

Here comes the cold

Break out the winter clothes
And find a love to call your own
You - enter you
Your cheeks a shade of pink
And the rest of you in powder blue

Who knows what will be
But I'll make you this guarantee

No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

In the dark, on the phone
You tell me the names of your brothers
And your favorite colors
I'm learning you
And when it snows again
We'll take a walk outside
And search the sky
Like children do
I'll say to you

No way November will see our goodbye
When it comes to December it's obvious why
No one wants to be alone at Christmas time
And come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?

And we'll both be safe 'til St. Patrick's Day

We should take a ride tonight around the town
and look around at all the beautiful houses
something in the way that blue lights on a black night
can make you feel more
everybody, it seems to me, just wants to be
just like you and me

No one wants to be alone at Christmas time

And come January we're frozen inside
Making new resolutions a hundred times
February, won't you be my valentine?

And if our always is all that we gave
And we someday take that away

I'll be alright if it was just 'til St. Patrick's Day 

John Mayer - St. Patrick's Day

call me task-beggar

this is what i've been doing ever since my 1st supervisor had 'left me behind' for business trip and my 2nd one been busy with his own duties

cling to one to another person in the room. ask that question above. get the same answer : Nope

end up by doing nothing on my desk and here comes blogwalking, recipes browsing, burst into silent LOL while 9gagging yeah fkooorrssss

"feeling guilty somehow?"

sure !

"but it's a guilty pleasure and you LOVE it as hell"

at least not to do it for several days in a row, particularly not in the same room with no one does the same thing as I do

Shalom !

i know it's been ages left behind

i know it's too late to say Herzlich Wilkommen in Deutschland though it's the umpteenth weeks being here, its excitement remains the same

welcoming spring and sun and warmth  not yet and upcoming Easter

okay, what's to buy ? flowers, chocolates for sure, sweet breads, holiday ticket, new clo........